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transmechanicus · 2 days ago

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Yipee hooray i ate one full meal today at 9pm after giving like a quart of blood to check my hormones and almost passing out on my walk home. Surely a few hours later i won’t already be-*

…Why am i hungers? 🤨

#my stuff #i hate struggling so much with food. i’m trying to do better. the awareness of the cost of food tho makes it hard to be kind to myself #and it’s reached the point where even if i’m hungry i can maybe eat two bites before most things are unappetizing #unless it’s something very simple like crackers or fresh meat or fruit or Milk My Savior Milk #i made a kind of birria soup yesterday that i usually adore and i can’t stomach it and i hate that it’ll be wasted bc of me #and of course it’s only at 3am when The Gnaw sets in that i suddenly know what i want but can’t have at that hour #bc it’s usually things i only have for like 2 days once every couple months before i eat it all #god i wish the average mf in the midwest could get sashimi grade salmon or tuna for cheap #insane and privileged desire i know but im deeply constantly hungry and i live in the US state most closely cosplaying Finland #i am deprived of sunlight and warmth and have always been a barely better than a skeleton #so raw fish calls to me. my budget does not allow tho.#but god if i could just chomp into a whole nigiri filet for breakfast that might fucking fix me #or if nectarines were in season #idk i’m rambling now #though we never eat we still know how to feed #<- unofficial erika ed tag now ig sorry

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